My daughter Emma Katherine Roey, now Emma Buchheim, lied about a friend being raped and attempting suicide, claimed to have been molested by a priest, and then, just as her attorneys were about to file a law suit, Emma accused her mother (me) of physically abusing her and later of poisoning her with DDT. Emma claimed to have a toxicology report to confirm that her mother (me, again!) poisoned her, but would never turn over this report to my attorney. If you read through the blog, you will find many other examples of Emma’s lying. At one point, she even complained about the way her dad touched her and that he called her a “bitch” and a “slut” everyday. (I refused to listen to her when she talked about her dad like that.) As long as Emma continues with the lies, I will tell her story.  Emma and her current husband, Tyler Buchheim live in Frisco, Texas where Tyler, who has put architecture on hold, is studying to be a Full Stack Developer at the Flatiron School in an effort to avoid a midlife crisis (according to Tyler).  Emma works in the Dallas/Ft. Worth area as an insurance underwriter.   Emma and Tyler are the parents to two little dogs, Arya and Sansa.  (Emma is a huge Game of Thrones fan.)  Love and thanks to all of you who read and have written to me. If you have any questions or comments, please contact me at: losingemma@gmail.com Please continue to share the blog with others.

A dreary, rainy day, and after getting tires for my car, and running some errands, I was looking forward to spending a quiet day at home.  Ok, I have a lot of things I need to be doing at home, but I’m also in the middle of a good book, so you probably know how that goes.

I’ve had a lot of things on my mind regarding Emma, and I have wanted to sit down and write about several things, but particularly her GI problems (aka her DDT poisoning).  I have wondered if there’s any correlation between GI problems and mental illness.    At this point, I don’t believe Emma was really sick, and I’ll explain why later when I go into all her vomiting issues.  I wonder if she still throws up when she doesn’t get what she wants, or was she miraculously cured when she got rid of her evil mother?  In any event, like everyone else, I have a busy life, and it’s hard and somewhat painful to tell Emma’s story, and I don’t have some literary agent giving me an advance so I can quit my job and sit and write all day, (Ok, I just find that thought funny, so I had to put it out there.) so I will keep plugging away.

I had to laugh when someone showed me this meme, and said, “Look, there’s Emma!”  Of course, I’m hoping Emma will grow up, and start acting like  grown up, admit what she did, and let us all move forward, but those of you that know me know that I think there’s something very wrong with my daughter.  I would like to believe that my sweet girl is still somewhere inside, but I am not optimistic.  As a mother, it’s heartbreaking, knowing what potential your child had, and knowing what a positive difference she could have made in the world, and then facing the truth, that your child is not what she seems.

Another meme that I saw on Facebook a few times, was a George Carlin (whether or not this was really attributed to him or not, I don’t know), and was something about if your child is an asshole, it’s your fault. (Sorry, I can’t find it now, or I would share it here.)  I saw that one and thought, “Well yeah, but only if you have normal children.”  Phill and I tried to set a good example for Emma, and tried to discipline her appropriately although if you’ve read some of my previous posts, Emma never cared that actions had consequences.  If she wanted to do something, she would do it and take the punishment (and then say we punished her because we hated her.)  Emma did what she wanted to do, even as a little girl.  We tried to correct her and bring her up right, and thought we just had a stubborn child, not realizing there was something else going on.

We were a small family, Phill, Emma, and I, and I guess every child thinks their family is dysfunctional.  I remember at a church social event laughing when a girl who was a year or so younger than Emma said to a friend, “Wow!  Your parents are both doctors?”  My mom doesn’t do anything and my dad just sells houses.  Yeah, her mom didn’t do anything but manage the household and take care of every  need for that young lady and her brother.

Emma thought her dad was a clueless, dumb truck driver, but I don’t really know what Emma thought about me until she decided she needed to change from playing the roll of  a sexual abuse victim, to child abuse victim.  Emma and I were very close, and she hugged and cuddled with me everyday, and even at 16 would frequently come sit in my lap and put her arms around me and rest her head on my shoulder.  Almost every night, when I got in to bed to read or watch tv before bed, Emma would come in, get under the covers, and lie in the bed with me before she went to bed.  Unless I was watching something she wanted to watch, I usually turned off the sound to the tv because she would want to talk.  If Phill were home and came in the bedroom, Emma would banish him from the room so we could have “girl talk.”  There were so many sweet moments with my girl, even almost 7 years later, it’s still hard to believe things turned out like they did.

As I mentioned earlier, Phill could not tell a joke to save his life, but he had a great sense of humor and was quick with puns.  I have a pretty good sense of humor, but am not as quick thinking as Phill.  Emma could easily take offense to Phill’s jokes, and a lot of times just didn’t get them, as he might make a joke referring to something from pop culture before Emma was born, and would would have to explain things do her, but Emma could also be very funny, and in any event, there was a lot of laughter in our home.

Often, we would want to share with Emma movies we remembered seeing when we were first married, remembering how funny they were and thinking she would enjoy them.  I remember one time saying, “I don’t remember this movie having all this bad language!” and Emma replying, “Mom, you say that every time.”  I guess all those curse words sailed right by when I was in my 20’s, but then they seem to be flashing in neon lights when you hear the same words while sitting with your child!

Once, when we heard the song, “Every Move you Make” by the Police, my mind wandered back to the early 80’s, and then Emma brought me back to reality when she said, “That song sounds rather stalkerish.”  Lol.  I was just enjoying the song and had never given much thought to the meaning of it, but she was right!

We were a close family, and Phill and I loved each other, and we loved Emma.  When Emma wasn’t around, Phill and I still had fun together, and I thought we set a good example of what a good marriage was for Emma.  Phill was always just as introverted as I was and could be very awkward in social situations.  Sometimes, he would become very talkative if he was uncomfortable, but not in a good way, just sort of nervous and rambling.  He became much more of a social butterfly once his found his niche with his RC buddies, and as for me, being on my own and going back to work, and working with the public has forced me to become much more social.  I was always horrible at small talk, and very uncomfortable at parties, but I think I’ve mastered the small talk thing pretty well.  People like to talk about themselves, so if you get people talking, it’s really not that difficult.  You just sit back and let them talk.  Even with the ones who are also introverts, you can usually find a topic they like to talk about.

I love funny people.  Thank goodness I have friends who make me laugh.  Life can have it’s tough moments, and I work in a field where I see a lot of trials and sadness, but I’m always grateful for laughter.  I admire the people going through difficult situations, like fighting cancer, who still have a sense of humor.  You see some people who’ve been through things and turn angry and bitter, and I never want to be them.  While I might make fun of my husband for being such an idiot and letting Emma get away with what she did, and I regret that because of his actions (or lack of) we may have lost an opportunity to get Emma some help while she was still under our roof, I don’t want to be one of those angry, bitter people.  There’s still a lot of things I want to do and see in this world, and I don’t have time for the petty stuff.

I’ve met plenty of women who were treated badly by their husbands and ended up divorced.  I’m surprised sometimes that someone I just met will tell me something that seems so personal so quickly, but I think as time goes on, it’s easier to talk about, so I think I can see why they talk about it so easily.  I have seen some of these women that are still so angry and bitter after many years, and I let them know that I am divorced as well, and I understand.  While I don’t share my life story with people I’ve just met, I can usually make them laugh with a joke, “Well, he’s not dead, and I’m not in jail, so it must be a good day.” (And, I hesitated to tell that story lest Phill have me arrested and accusing me of making terroristic threats, but I think it’s obvious I’m joking, although I wouldn’t put anything past Phill.)  I have nicknames for Phill like “Flatworld Phill” and I enjoyed making the bank tellers laugh because across every check from Phill, in the top left hand corner, it would say, “Alimony” in big letters, so I would add, “–from the idiot” in neat cursive writing when depositing my check.  And, I jokingly refer to Kim Chassion as Phill’s trophy wife because if you knew Phill, had someone he knew dumped his wife for a younger woman (even though she’s not that much younger), Phill would have used that term in jest.

I’ve never met The Good Son-in-Law, Tyler Buchheim, and I have no idea what he’s like, but the one thing I would wish for him and Emma, if their marriage were to last, would be a lot of laughter.  One of the things I loved about my husband was that he could always make me laugh, and when you have a bad day or are going through something difficult, or even a boring day, just dealing with all the mundane things in life, someone who makes you laugh is a handy thing to have.  Emma and Tyler are still in that “new love” stage, and Tyler hasn’t fully experienced what life with a drama queen will bring, so I hope he’s got a good sense of humor!  Good luck, Ty!